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It feels really good to be back at school. Education is power. Really excited for my composition 1302 class, dreaming of becoming a good writer. Going to become a better blogger.

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Staying positive when you can’t see the end

I know it happens to every single one of us we start off positive and motivated to complete our goals in life. But every once in awhile we tend to lose that motivation, that fire that makes us want to keep moving forward. The most difficult thing for most people is staying positive and motivated throughout the entire process. Here are a few tips of mine that I like to do to stay positive and motivated throughout the process in completing my goals in life. I too like every other human tend to lose focus, but it is crucial that when you first realize the loss of that focus to redirect it towards the direction that you want or perhaps take a small break to motivate you to get back on your toes.

1:  Always believe in yourself that you have the capability in you to accomplish what it is that you are setting yourself out to accomplish.

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2: Visualize yourself already accomplishing your goals. Visualize yourself living the life you would be living if your goal was already accomplished.

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3: Having friends with similar goals and interests as yourself can be a great way for both of you to motivate each other towards your end goal.

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4: Watch the movie The Secret whenever you’re feeling down. Believe it or not but whenever I feel like my goals are really out of my reach I’ll sit back and watch this video and I’ll quickly get motivated again.

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5: Get yourself a planner and on pacific dates put stuff that you’re going to do on that day that will move you towards accomplishing your goals.

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The struggles I faced just to go to college

My entire life I have always known that I wanted to go to college. But for some weird reason I was always afraid of attending or applying for college. I believed because of my disability and unable  to learn, I thought that I would be unable to learn in college and be  unsuccessful as a student. I was afraid to attend college because I was afraid of making myself look like a fool in front of other students. I dropped out of high school and that same year I got a GED. When I later got the courage and the willpower to atend college and better myself, I asked my family and my parents to help me financially to go to college; a community college at the time. Both of my parents told me “no” because they didn’t believe that I would be capable of graduating and they told me that paying for my college will be as throwing money away. I got a job and saved as much money as I could, it was barely enough to pay for one semester but I was officially in college. Unfortunately because of my disability I was still not college ready so I had to take remedial classes. While I was taking three remedial classes I was working full time so that I would be able to pay the next semester as soon as this semester was over. I was able to pay for a full year of college and after that I wasn’t able to keep up. I had to stop attending college for about 2 or 3 years because I didn’t have the money and I didn’t qualify for financial aid and in order for me to get student loans one of my parents had to cosign, which none of them did. I had to wait till I turned the age of 25 so that I could be considered independent from my family’s wealth. As soon as I turn 25 I applied for financial aid and got approved for financial assistance. It really sucks that I had to wait till the age of 25 so that I can attend college but I am truly grateful that I was able to get financial aid and continue on the path towards achieving my dream goal.  There are always going to be bumps in the road and some of them might keep you from attending college just like some of my bumps did but you just have to keep moving on and eventually you’ll accomplish your ultimate dream. never give up!

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Letters to my guardian 002

Dear Guardian

Guardian I would like to say thank you because there are so many things in my life to be grateful for. I’m so grateful just a couple of days ago I got my financial aid money on my debit card and I was able to buy my books a week in advance before school starts. Because of this I saved a lot of money and I will have my books before class starts so thank you. Also everything in my life has been going great I’ve been helping out my mother at the office which I’ve been working for free but I cannot complain because she pays for my car on my insurance. Guardian I keep having a dream where I buy a brand new house it’s a beautiful home but the inside of the house is empty it lacks furniture and to all the comforts that makes a home a home I’ve already had this dream 3 times I wonder what it means. I want to ask you to keep looking over me to keep me on the right path and to keep me out of trouble or from being in the wrong place at the wrong time as you always have. Guardian I know you watch over me and I can feel your presence around me all the time I asked for you to help me and guide me to the right path I want to do great things in my life and I want to help many people as many as I possibly can. There isn’t really much amazing things happening in my life right now but I know that’s about to change very quickly because I’m about to start school.

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Happy to go back to school

So some times I just stay laying in my room looking at the walls hoping I can be back in school. College to me is so much fun, yesterday I got my fasa money. Class starts on the 20th of this mth so I got all of my books online so that it can be less money to wast. Last semester I got all A’s and im hopping to do that again this semester. I’m always looking at videos on youtube on ”whats the best way to study”.

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Letters to the dream buckets

Dear Guardian

I had a dream last night, like I always do, but this one was a little different. I go back to college on the 20th of this month and I fear my subconscious mind is bringing some of my past back. The dream takes place in a classroom in the college that I am attending. As the teacher speaks I find myself incapable of learning of what is being taught to me. My instructor quickly finds out I’m unable to learn and she sends me to a special ed class in college. All elementary junior high and high school I had to attend special classes because I was unable to learn. I fear my own subconscious mind might have doubt’s on my own ability to learn new things.

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I will not given into my own fears. All my life I was told I would never amount to anything and that I would never be able to accomplish much. Guardian not only have I proven everyone wrong but I’ve also proved myself wrong. I have so much will power so much dedication I will not give up easily nor will I give in to my fears.